impending

28 Jul, 2025

i haven't felt such a high high since 10th grade and now im about to be in 12th.

im afraid its all going to crash down on me again.

but. i'll pretend it doesn't exist.

for now.

maybe i'll worry about it 2 weeks before school starts again.

i've always been a "smart" kid. i mean. i got slightly above average grades. i was in a whole program (for lack of a better term) specifically for 'smart' kids (TAG [talented and gifted])

i feel like i've stopped caring.

sorry to the people who thought i could make it far (?, probably next to no one)

im just trying to make myself happy. which is tough. and i do try...

but sometimes i cant help but feel like a big change will happen after i graduate (besides the obvious, superficial stuff).