Capable Yet Incapable

26 Nov, 2025

I sometimes feel as if there is something I can do yet my skill set isn't high enough or I don't put in the effort to be able to be capable.

Unfortunately, I think I've dug myself into a hole of complacency---where I feel like nothing matters as long as I can get by.

And, to be frank, I'm unsure if I can climb out from that hole.

I have my small things I do to make me feel more capable than I likely am (drawing, rentry decoration, making music).

However, I can't help but wonder if I should stop prioritizing myself as much as my grades/academics.

I've been wondering if schools would even spare me the glance since I haven't really done any extracurriculars up until this point. I've only just decided this year to be a part of the National Art Honors Society.

But I feel as if I can get that glance I've been searching for? Does that make any sense?

I can be capable, but I struggle with settling with complacency that I'm almost incapable.

Yeah, something like that...